Went to Universal Studios with Shawn and my family today, spent hours hobbling around with my sprained ankle but i couldn’t have asked for a better day or better people to have spent it with.
“I haven’t seen you in so long che che, and now i get to spend the whole day with you and kor kor shawn. this is the best day of my life ever.”
I’ve been so absorbed with so many things i’d completely forgotten how to be a sister. I’d been completely neglecting Thias and didn’t even bother. I never once in the past few weeks even factored how my absence from home would affect him.
It felt so good to spend the day with him, with him holding my hand in one arm and shawn’s in his other, running around the theme park and squealing together on the rides and having him bury his head in my lap and ask me to hug him during the scary parts of the indoor rides. It felt so good to feel like i could actually be a good sister for once, and it felt so good when thias looked up at me and with his innocent, little, unknowingly powerful words, assured me he loved me as a little brother no matter how shitty a sister i’ve been lately.
it’s been forever since i last felt genuinely, wholly loved in all aspects of the word, and it came from the smallest gestures from one tiny little boy and the boy who’s seen me at my worst and has every reason in the world to hate me.
I’m so lucky to have them in my life. I love you both so, so much.